BAD OR EVIL???

WHATEVER YOU WANT TO SAY..OR YOUR FIRST IMPRESSION TO ME..
IT DOES NOT IMPORTANT ANYMORE TO ME..
IT IS MY LIFE..
YOU CAN JUDGE ME AS BAD OR EVEN EVIL..
BUT YOU DON'T KNOW ME..
YOU BETTER DON'T..
BECAUSE I CAN BE BOTH..




HURT..the hurting..
thats all i know and i feel right now..but i know..God will always help someone that pray too Him..



AM I BEING TO CRUEL TO SOMEONE ELSE???OR IM BEING CRUEL TO MYSELF??
I STILL CANT ANSWER THAT QUESTION..IM STILL TOO YOUNG..
MY LIFE JOURNEY IS WAY SO FAR..
IM VERY CONFUSED..
IM IN THE CRISIS PHRASE WHICH I HOPE I CAN FACE IT WITH FULL OF PATIENT..
BUT IM NOT STRONG..I JUST CAN'T..I RALLY NEED SOMEONE..I DON'T WANT TO MAKE THE WRONG
DECISION..GOD..HELP ME..SHOW ME THE RIGHT PATH..GIVE ME THE LIGHT SO THAT MY LIFE AND MY FUTURE WOULD BE BRIGHT...


I JUST NEED A LITTLE TIME TO FIND WHO AM I..
PLEASE GIVE ME SOME SPACE SO THAT I CAN THINK RATIONALLY AND BECOME SOMEONE BETTER
NOW..I ALWAYS SPEND MY TIME WRITING ON MY BLOG..EXPRESSING ALL MY FEELING AND EVERYTHING THAT I FEEL LIKE WANT TO SHARE WITH SOMEONE OUT THERE THAT WOULD READ MY BLOG..
MY LIFE IS VERY EMPTY..I FEEL LONELY.NOBODY TO TALK TO OR TO FIGHT WITH IN THE HOUSE..SINCE MY SISTER WENT THERE..MY LIFE HAD CHANGE..LONELY..EMPTY HAD ALREADY BE MY BEST FRIEND NOW..


TEARS...
HAD BEEN MY BEST COMPANY...
EVERY TIME IN HEART AND SOUL..EVERYDAY WITHOUT MC..
IF THERE IS ONE DAY WITHOUT TEARS NOWADAYS,ITS A MIRACLE..
I HOPE THE TEARS WILL STOP SOON..
I WANT TO BE SOMEONE STRONG..STRONG ENOUGH TO FACE ALL THE CHALLENGE THAT I HAVE TO DEAL WITH..

GOD..HELP ME..I KNOW IM GETTING FAR AWAY FROM YOU GOD..
I JUST CAN FEEL IT..PLEASE..SHOW ME THE RIGHT PATH..I DONT WANT TO BE LOST ANYMORE..
SHOW ME THE WAY..I KNOW YOU ALWAYS HEAR ME..GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO CHANGE...I WANT O CHANGE..PLEASE..:'(

ARE THERE ANYMORE LOVE LEFT FOR ME???
WOULD GOD GIVE ME CHANCE???
WOULD PEOPLE AROUND ME GIVE ME CHANCE???
WOULD PEOPLE THAT I'VE EVER HURT GIVE ME THE CHANCE???
I BELIEVE THAT THERE WILL BE A CHANCE FOR EVERYBODY...